No Thank you I mean it is very kind of you But I am definitely completely ok. Besides even if I werent I'm not really what's important here. I'm not the one who was killed or betrayed. Or tortured. or anything.
Either way. I wasn't killed. Or tortured. Or anything. I made a lot of things worse for a lot of people. Not because I was possessed but because of who I am.
Because If I had acted the way the others did who were possessed, people would have known something was wrong right away and then stopped me right away.
But I was a coward. I kept it a secret. Even though I was really on their side, I only did dishonest things. Everyone else fought bravely for what they believed was right, even if their thinking had been twisted ... I couldnt even do that . If I had just been honest or had any integrity (even if it was for the wrong side) things would have ended up better. for a lot of people.
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Thank you
I mean it is very kind of you
But I am definitely completely ok.
Besides even if I werent I'm not really what's important here.
I'm not the one who was killed or betrayed. Or tortured. or anything.
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do you mean to say that
you do not see yourself as a victim
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dont know.
But
Either way.
I wasn't killed. Or tortured.
Or anything.
I made a lot of things worse for a lot of people.
Not because I was possessed but because of who I am.
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i don't think i understand
i'm sorry
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If I had acted the way the others did who were possessed, people would have known something was wrong right away and then stopped me right away.
But I was a coward.
I kept it a secret.
Even though I was really on their side, I only did dishonest things.
Everyone else fought bravely for what they believed was right, even if their thinking had been twisted ...
I couldnt even do that .
If I had just been honest or
had any integrity (even if it was for the wrong side)
things would have ended up better. for a lot of people.
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but i believe you are being too hard on yourself
and to hold onto regret only keeps time from passing properly
if you can't go back and change it
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But it's
not like I deserve to just be able to let it go
and keep on living happily like nothing ever happened
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at any rate
i most likely feel so strongly about this
because i find you to be an exceptionally good person
so i don't wish for you to feel this way
perhaps that's selfish of me
but i think others would agree
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There also must be many others who do want me to.
And I dont know what to do.
What would you do?
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i have held onto my regret
kept it close
it's very painful
i do not recommend it
not for anyone
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I didnt know that
I'm really sorry for making everything about my problems.
Do you want me to leave you alone right now ?
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this is about you
i just wanted to answer your question honestly
i don't need to be left alone or anything of that sort
you put everyone before yourself
don't you?
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Thank you
I need to think a little bit maybe
I dont know
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